Entry 4

Well it's time to start thinking about flights.  I have found a room that I intend to rent, if things go well that is.  It's a really nice large studio room not far from central Dunedin.  It's difficult doing everything via the Internet but I'm sure it will all work out.  I'm not sure exactly when I am going to fly down but within the next few weeks.  Although I have applied to unis for the last few years with varying success this still feels as though it is happening so fast.  Everyone keeps asking me if I'm excited about the move and I guess a part of me is.  A part of me just wants to curl up in my own bed in my own bedroom in the house I have been in since childhood and stay there.  I told one of my friends yesterday when faced with the question of whether I'm excited about this or not that I'm excited to find out who I am.  Okay so admittedly that is extremely cliche or something you'd hear on an American teenage drama (think Dawson's Creek, One Tree Hill etc).  But what I mean is I've been at Massey University for the past 7 years, 4 of the those years was spent with the same group of friends I'd had since high school.  The last three have been spent working hard and making a few different friends.  But it's been so comfortable, and I don't mean it has always been good.  My time studying and working at Massey has been hard, and hasn't always been a smoothe ride.  But I've gotten comfortable in the way things are and how things work.  Now it's time to venture out a little, not too far from home, but far enough to start afresh, with no preconceived notions following me.  New surroundings, new people, new opportunities.  I'm terrified, but ready.